Today's the Day
I just have to complete my usual morning routine, head to work for a few hours, and then bounce out early to head down to the Young Adult Cancer Retreat. I've been filled with anxiety over this since I signed up. I even had a dream about it - and the dream was not good. The idea of shuffling off to spend a weekend with a bunch of strangers is pretty freakin' scary to me, I'm not gonna lie. Yesterday when I got home from work, our neighbor and good friend, Joe, was standing in his driveway. He asked me if I was going to see a band I really like tonight and I explained that, no, I would be at this retreat. Much like Ryan, his response was, "Why?!" He went on to ask if I felt like it was something I needed to do, and the truth is, I really don't know. I have had nothing but negative experiences when I've tried to connect with other cancer survivors (except for my spotty online connection with Emily of http://killingitblog.com/ )...